Hello all! I have a bit of a rant on the way. Are you familiar with Dungeons and Dragons? Well, I have recently started playing and I have some feelings.
So let's start at the beginning. I recently joined an online game of Dungeons and Dragons as a newbie. It's only every other two weeks, shouldn't be too stressful, right? I thought it would be buckets of fun, super engaging, and maybe even a little scary.
The group I started with was split into two parties that would eventually meet later on in the campaign. That was fine with me, the less people I have to work with to establish a storyline, the better, because like I said: newbie. So I start working with this other woman and everything is fine. Then, a 3rd party member joins our group, turning our twosome into a threesome. Totally fine. I'm a team player. Except this new character has the mentality of a toddler. He is a grown man roleplaying a child . . . a child that just so happens to be obsessed with my player. He is climbing on my back, grabbing my legs, doing thoughtless things unless I parent him not too. And it's only me.
Now you might be thinking: why not just leave? Well, I'm no quitter (sometimes) and I really wanted to play the vampire campaign. I mean, come on: vampires. So I put up with it and my character is forced to have a complete change of personality to placate this person that I have never even met in person. Long story short, after a few sessions the guy ends up leaving (no one seems that torn up) and now I am stuck with the personality that he essentially built for me.
So that's the background for my character. Not someone I am crazy about. Not the person that I wanted to play. But whatever, it's fine. It's just a game.
Anyway, in our last session, we got another new person. Alright, great. It's a tabaxi (cat person), even better. I love cats. So there are now five people in this party and I. Cannot. Get. A. Word. In. I am listening to three other players just go back and forth and back and forth. No one is talking to me and no one is letting me talk. I feel like a spectator for this game that I pay to play every two weeks. I don't know if because of the last player changing my character personality, people don't like my character. I don't know if people don't like me. I don't know if I just need to try to be more assertive. I don't know. But whatever it is, I am not having a good time.
This was supposed to be a chance for me to get creative, work through stories from a different perspective, and have fun with storytelling. But now I just find myself dreading the sessions and hoping (secretly) that I will be killed off.
Does anyone have any similar experiences or any advice to share?
Thank you for reading!!
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